My biggest fear since becoming a mother is that of screwing up as a mum and making the wrong decisions. I know that none of us are perfect but it scares me that maybe something I do, or even don't do, may have a lasting detrimental effect on the innocent little being that we brought into this world. I fear that my own failings and insecurities will pass to our son and I do not for one second want that. I want him to grow up happy, secure, confident and know that he is loved more than we can possibly ever express with words alone. I am anxious that we get it right as parents although what right is we cannot know for sure.
I fear the loss of the man I share my life with. To have been lucky enough to have found that one person that makes my world, the thought that one day it will end doesn't bear thinking about. I am afraid I may not be strong enough to carry on without him walking by my side without a heavy heart. I am living in hope that when that day comes we will both be old and grey and will have lived a full life together.
These two are my greatest fears. My lesser fears include wasps, maggots and running out of toilet paper!